Last night was awful. Robert and I had our first fight, and I am afraid we might not make it. Sure all couples fight, but this was the first time for us. I really do love him, and I want to call him, but I am scared.
One good thing though, it didn’t make me want to eat. Instead, I had to force myself to eat this morning. I guess that might be better than binging. What we fought about was so stupid. He wanted to take me out. He asked where I wanted to go, and I said that I would go wherever he wanted. That went on for a couple of minutes, and then he got mad and told me never mind, we won’t go anywhere then. And he left.
Oh, the phone’s ringing…
Wow! That was Robert. As soon as he heard my voice, he told me he loved me. He said that he was upset because he wants to know what I want. That way he will make me happy, and that’s all that matters to him when he’s with me, making me happy. When I don’t tell him what I want to do when he asks, it’s almost like I’m telling him that I don’t want him to make me happy. I am so relieved. He still loves me, and I still love him, and we got through our first argument without breaking up.
Now, to make myself tell him what I like and what I want. I guess I’m just not used to having someone else think of me and my feelings like that. Another reason to be happy with the Zone diet plan. By being on the Zone, I am caring for and about myself more than ever. I am losing weight in a healthy way, and I am eating in a way that is making me feel better about myself. I also have begun asking people for help when I need it, that’s something I never would have done before.
The Zone delivery meals have given me more time, and more energy to do other things, rather than shop and cook. That means I have more time for fun and building my relationship with Robert. Those are all things that have helped make my life easier, better, and more complete.
I am really looking forward to our walking and talking tonight. Making up is always much more fun than fighting, and if he asks me what I want to do, I won’t hesitate to tell him. I guess I better go get ready for our walk. I know it’s early, but I want to make a surprise to bring to Robert. It will be something that tells him that I want to make him happy too, a list of all my favorite things to do, to see, to read, and to watch. I think I might even ask him to make his own list for me for tomorrow night. Zone, Robert, weight loss, new love, all great things that came about in my life around the same time. Life sure is good.