When I passed the shopping center windows today, I made the mistake of looking. You know how it can be with those windows; they make everyone look fat, right? Well, anyhow, that’s what I thought. Then, I came home, and when I put my lightweight jacket away, the other sweaters and coats fell off the back of the closet door and uncovered my mirror — my full-length mirror.
Wow! I was horrified. I have avoided full-length mirrors for a couple of years, ever since I had to go on some medication that started my weight gain. I have been off the medication for about a year, but the weight hasn’t even budged.
I thought it would automatically come off when I stopped taking the meds, but boy, was I wrong. Anyhow, when I saw my reflection in the mirror this afternoon, I was ashamed. I began to cry at the sight of me, feeling like that shouldn’t be me. I don’t feel like a fat person, but the way I look…
Now, I have had a couple of hours to think things through, and I think I have come up with a plan. I know that, if I try to diet on my own, I may not take the time to do it right (been there, done that…or not). So, I decided to check out some of those diet food delivery places. You know the ones where you can order food that is all cooked and sent in good portions for weight loss? I don’t know if there is one that will serve the kinds of food I like, but I guess I should at least check them out and give them a try. I have a few in mind that I have heard of. I heard that some of them even offer to help you maintain your weight once you have reached your goal. When I began my Internet search this afternoon, I came across one called Zone. I remember a friend of mine losing weight with that plan a few years ago.
I will never forget how I treated her, like she shouldn’t need all that help. I sure do need all that help now.
Maybe I will call her and talk to her about it. I think I’ll also plan on starting right away. According to what I read, you can begin to receive your meals a couple of days after you place your order. Now I am getting excited. I think I will go sign up and begin as soon as they can get the meals to me. The weekend is almost here, so the sooner, the better. I really hope I can do this. I have to lose weight; otherwise, I will look like this for the rest of my life. I hate feeling like I have to hide, not just from mirrors, but from letting the real me be seen. I feel so ugly, but maybe this will work.
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